One, two, three.. n.. mistakes a day and yet I don’t feel like apologizing. Anyway what should compel me to when no one ever does anyway. I guess it’s too much to ask from me when YOU can’t do it!

Almost everything in life goes by the third law of motion: “For every force there is an equal, but opposite, force” or reciprocity.. If you can’t give, then why the heck do you expect to receive.. the cases are similar to the manga turned to moving pics Full Metal Alchemist’s dogma the Law of the Equivalent Trade.. kinda crazy, but right now, I am thinking that the world is perfectly fixed into parts and every part has their own function. Like the world is filled with math, since everything we do is a consequence of what we did then(?! a is an independent variable and b is a dependent variable; a is what you did then and b is the response to the stimuli.. if one of the variables doesn’t exist then the experience does not exist). Regarding the sense that men are also made by particles with charges or the entire human mass itself possesses gravitation, and that opposing charges attract each other and vice versa.. can also mean that men are put in this world for a purpose and with regard to my example, be a partner for one and be defiant to another. Haha! kinda sad, another article about destiny in a language I am now getting quite inclined into.. I still hate math don’t worry.

How do I end this?… Crap, haven’t thought of an ending yet..

PS: This article is made-up of the things I’ve read and heard.. so don’t question me, question my sources.. and those sources/ people are YOU!

PPS: This article is still open for deliberation, so feel free to discuss it with me or anyone else.. I kinda like the thought so I may expand it every now and then.

I’ve watched the movie “The Ghost Rider” lately; the Asian TV premiere on HBO came a few months late so I guess anyone can understand my case if you know that I don’t exactly aspire to watch a pirated version of the movie.

It was more of watching action poses rather than watching an action movie, but the graphics we’re done well so there was still much of the movie to be appreciated. It’s like a comic book on a wide screen. Cage is kind of old, that’s a good excuse, I guess… so well done! If I was Adam Sessler from X-play I’ll give it a 3 out of 5 and give Morgan Webb a kiss.

I have a few lines in excerpt of the script that are kinda… I can’t define how to call them, maybe inspiring would be a good word or rather worth criticizing. It’s about choices, it does not go exactly as this line : “If you can’t make a choice, the choice makes you”. Forgive my poor memory, but I really like remaking things so that I can understand them better… sorry Ghost Rider movie scriptwriters!

In life we make a lot of choices, and choosing none of the available choices is already a decision that can significantly alter what will happen next. Even if we choose not to, life goes on in the known universe, that and including the life of the person who made the choice. I guess that’s one implication, making choices isn’t a need, rather it’s inevitable… So why decide?! A sad thing really fate and such, but that’s not me! I’m more of the 2nd implication type of person… and I’m this : I reserve choices and and decide on them when I’m ready. Grabbing an opportunity is a good habit. It made Bill Gates rich and Albert Einstein a genius. Preparation before making a decision will mean that I deserve the consequences of my choice. So choices changes a person for the better or a choice makes you fit in it every corners of it before it is actualized. Now I’m back to being happy! Peace out!

I’ve enrolled for summer classes just a few hours ago (9 hours). None of the subjects I petitioned to be open was approved yet, but it was certainly fun meeting-up with chums especially when they are a bit weary about the grades they had last semester. Me?! I kinda did well in that semester. Not a single F in sight, although one of my professors gave a nasty and questionable grade entry — all of us question the professor for the grades we received, but heck, we live in the Philippines and such things happen all the time, again I’m just too young to worry.

My prayers have been answered, cold cash at last! I’m poor when I just stay at home, no cash to buy my favorite drinks, to pursue my habit and save-up for the books I want to read. Kinda sad really, just eating, playing AruaRose-Online and Warcraft III: The Frozen Throne: DoTA mod, sleeping, watching T.V., listening to cool music from Avenged Sevenfold, Jason Mraz and Secondhand Serenade (yup, I have confusing preferences in music genres). But the challenge is there although everything is provided; I guess innovating new ways of having fun at home would be the best way to kill boredom, but I can’t wait any longer.. so summer classes, here I come!

Hm.. I’ll be taking up Political Science : blahblah (full title, not yet memorized), Strength of Materials (our course’s core subject) and Engineering Management (Just a reading-reporting class perhaps).

P.S. : pertaining to what I do when I come to school, I live by this motto : “I never let my schooling interfere with my education“. That’s by Mark Twain, Ladies and Gentlemen. And I’m not the guy who aspires to be ultimate academically, or the guy attending classes to suck-up to teachers. I want to live a life that I lead rather than a life that is led by others for me. Hmm.. we students are not attending school to have high grades anyway, we’re in it because we want to be educated.

PEACE OUT!!

At last an easing feeling! My girlfriend isn’t pregnant, if she is.. it ain’t my kid! I’m some happy guy right now, not because I got rid of the kid problem (although I want to be a dad someday), but I have another chance to have a rather brighter future with one I truly care for, YEN? haha!

I’m not exactly smart and cute.. If I say I’m a little bit of both, I have a thick face. But oh well, that’s not exactly the standard of women these days anyhow.. aside from pity, they have a bunch of other reasons, reasons that will mean I am a weakling when I bite a bait from one lovely woman. Basing from experience I have these to share: No girl likes a nerd, even if he looks normal.. girls hate a person with a mysterious appeal; they freak out in a close proximity with one. Girls don’t like poets, they want musicians and often get deceived with the playa’ sort. They don’t want to share a long walk, they like those with wheels.

So now, even if I lost so many chances with really beautiful women (at least most of them were), I ‘m happy not to be the kind of guy I stated above. I don’t have a car (yet), I’m kinda nerd-ish, mysterious and poetic. I eat a lot although I don’t gain weight. I’m not perfect, I can’t be cool or growl over a microphone during rock band festivals. I can’t play the guitar like Batio, I like listening to avenged sevenfold and hate High School Musical. I’m just an ordinary guy, living in a hell and shitty city. I am the type of guy who’s kinda sold out, “di na mabenta”. That’s why I’m not getting married soon, ‘coz I’m often misunderstood and unappreciated. Not exactly a loser, I’m just too young to worry.

It’s sad, finding something I really need for so long.. passing right before my eyes, and then I blinked.. shitty things happened, and then the greatest wonder vanished quickly upon twilight. It was quick, but I was indebted to it for it has given me life. Neither by a kiss nor touch, but it was warm and worth staying alive for.

It was a night and a walk through this city, or was it a smile and a sad word.. a sad effect of the debate. Still all was good, and I saw her well. Everything she is, is beautiful.. but sadly not what I am, what she sees when she does. Perhaps that is the reason I have passionate feelings for her, and somehow, it is not in a mode of obsession nor lust. I am satisfied, I guess.. and wee bit pathetic. She can’t trust me, because she has given that to someone else.

If only I was born a better man, someone who she’d want to care for or at least just look at, I would be happy.. well I can’t say I’m not right now, but I want to be happier! If I am selfish, let me be that if I could keep her. In any case, I will be here for her, messing around with her head sometimes and still trying to make her happy with the best I can and who I am.

-what the heck am I doing?. tsk.. sad, silly me. Peace out!

It’s another summer wherein I spend time on being bored, so I guess it’s just right for me to restart my blogging even though less than a dot on the entire world’s population will read whatever I put here(actually, It’s a good thing for me although most people say it’s a bad idea for a website to never be visited). My last website took on about a hundred readers a week, some of them were misguided and went there, some did it out of curiosity, some were satisfied and some were not. I was inactive for about three weeks and my host’s administrator suspended my account. I don’t blame him… It was the right thing to do then. I’m now on the third version of my site, still not in flash but I’m working on it.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me and math. Well I mean I know, It’s not that I can’t answer difficult problems but I just end up solving things differently, sometimes carelessly but not with flawed logic. I am never good at it, I’m more of a politics and literature guy anyhow. I am not a nerd or a sissy, but I am not cool either. I bought a new calculator to at least be comfortable in solving and the calculator is good, but I still had the same problem with the way I think which led me to answering problems wrong sometimes. By the way, I am an engineering student…

If there is something worth remembering with this summer, it would be my article “in loving memory” that will be published in our provincial organ sometime soon. It made me happy because at last I am known to be good for something. It’s not math, but I did it with what I am passionate of doing… writing. I am inspired by a co-writer? Perhaps-perhaps.

So this is the end of my meaningless article. Well, all firsts are meant to end up as a product of a nut with nothing to do in an early morning (really early). I promise to do my rants again sometime soon. Peace out!